Daily Journal(ism): The Heats

This song has one of the illest intro & bridge in my opinion.........................

The D.O.C. - Doc & The Doctor

Peace

In a real euphoric states right now. Project dropping Friday, got clean draws & socks in the dresser, I'm about to watch Psych to end my night, & wake up to another Prosperous day. I'm focused & ready for more doors opening. Really feel like I've been smoking how relaxed I am, but I digress. I wish success & victory for all my friends & foes. If I damned my foes then I'd be a hater. I will say this, may my success kill my haters daily with kindness. Just blabbing I know. Y'all be easy.

Oh one more thing, Mobb Deep to old to be having beef with each other at this point in the game. That's like becoming a crackhead at the age of 75. Don't make sense....... I'm out

Voice

As I sit here reflecting on Good Friday, I think about what really got me looked into writing & rhyming. Growing I was one of the smallest guys in my class & head fight for everything I had. Not physically all the time but a ninja had to stand his ground & show that my heart don’t pump “no kool-aid”.

I really became dedicated to the art form of rhyming, mainly because it gave you a voice. I remember having to struggle to be heard or was often ignored when youngsters would debate about things that now seem silly. But I started writing & emceeing to find my voice. When I started on my path to all that is dope, haters came all out the wood works to halt my journey. But I pressed on, daydreaming, thinking, more daydreaming, & writing.

I would practice saying poems & rhymes in the mirror, dreaming of doing this for living. I would write short stories, poems, speeches, rhymes, anything that helped with my creativity.

As time went on, your boy got pretty good & would often have to show & prove in battles at the lunch table or in the restroom. All in all, a little ninja was finding his voice & folk were listening.

I can honestly say my daydreaming & writing has introduced me to cats that were creative & like-minded as myself. I’ve met & collaborated with guys I used to watch on the tube. All of this from daydreaming, hustling, & believing.  You can go as far as your mind, faith, & beliefs will take you.  Damn, I wasn’t trying to make this an inspirational joint but I guess this is what it is. I’m going to go outside & find me a BBQ to go to on this “Good Friday” or get my hoop on. After I finish watching Beats, Rhymes, & Life: The Travels of a Tribe Called Quest for the gazillionth time. Be Easy…………

The Daily Journal

April 13, 2012

Throwback Thursday - NE Heartbreak ~ New Edition

Respect to New Edition. Used to cut a rug to this one.

Thoughts

Ok so I'm coming more and more to the realization that I'm a wierd guy. I sing off-key in the shower at high levels, I like to cook in my drawers, I make wierd faces in the mirror before I start my day, and I have a strange obsession with marshmallows.

Often times I find that I'm left alone to my own thoughts. I have a small circle of ecletic chaps I connect and build with. We're all dreamers chasing a vision that others think as minimal and strange. I sit late at night lost in my thoughts of success and stability and what it has taken thus far to get to where I am. And it always feels that where I am is never enough.

I think I think too much and often feel I'm going insane. Oh well, I'm given another day to get things right and keep it together.

Sooooooooooooooooooooo..................

I think we been placed here for a specific reason. Some folk was placed here to help others, some folk was sent here to cause confusion & stress, & some folk was placed here to be helped. While working on my project, I went through several emotional stages that life tends to bring. From losing my grandfather, struggling with my faith, working a 9 to 5, & being creative with music all took it's toll to some degree.

I went through serious disconnect at one point from the music questioning myself on why was I still doing this. Then I would do a show or be online & several folk would reach out saying "Yo I been playing Beautiful World on repeat" or "Keep doing what your doing because the music is dope". Just when I would be at the point of "musical suicide", folk would pull me back in.

I guess it's true that you just never know who's listening, being touched, or motivated by what you do to some capacity. When I think about that, it makes me want to keep honing my craft & bettering myself. Sorry if this may seem "to serious" or doesn't give you any "comic relief" but it's real spit.  Respect to the true, learn better to the fake. Let's continue to inspire, learn, challenge,  & talk s#^t to improve ourselves. Easy...........................................

Everything Happens (For A Reason)

Over time, I continue to realize more & more how decisions I've made in the past is why I'm where I'm at now. I've learned from missed opportunities & bad judgment that should have been assessed better. Through this path, it's also taught me how to appreciate & learn from my mistakes. I say appreciate because maybe if I didn't make those mistakes & learn from them, I would be continuing this vicious cycle of mistakage.

My Grandparents used to tell don't take any wouldn't nickels. Pretty much they saying be wise with the decisions make & actions I take. Sometimes I listened & sometimes I didn't. It's like when you would have crush on that special someone but that special someone had been around the block a time or two. Family & friends try to tell you about the person's resume (whore monger) but you do it anyway & get burnt (that could go figuratively or literally). If you've got a head on your shoulders, you learn from that issue & make better choices the next time. Or keep bumping your head until you get the picture.

And then, some things happen where we have totally zero control of the outcome. Blame on fate, stars, or just the way of the world. But I think it's how we order our steps during & after every experience & trial that comes our way.

Now that I'm older well seasoned & wiser (self proclaimed), I developed the motto, "If you aim to take wise steps, you won't stump your toe". But all in all, everything happens for a reason. Now that I've said that, I think I'll which Trading Places (message).

Be smart & stay thirsty my friends.......... Know the ledge......